A few minutes ago my housemate comes home to find me playing Shank 2 with Theo. I normally play games pretty well but today I’ve been up all day, am ill, am physically drained, and am incredibly intoxicated, which means I don’t play as well as I normally would. We still made it to wave 27 and almost beat it, however I had to be revived a few times.
While watching me, my housemate made these… eyes that he always makes when I talk about how women are just as good at things like video games. Basically, his judgemental ‘bitch please’ sexist face.
I hate that I feel any time I play a game outside my room, or where people can see things like steam scores I can only ever play when I’m at the top of my game or people judge me because I’m a chick. I can’t have an offday, a sick day or just play a game recklessly for laughs without being sneered at as an inferior gamer. I have to play games with a results focus or be told to get out, that I’m not good enough and will be judged or harassed. It’s seriously annoying.
I think my housemate just ruined Shank 2 for me. Now I’m going to feel paranoid and antsy every time I start playing, wondering who will come into the lounge and judge me for simply wanting to have a good time and not taking things too seriously. Ugh. End rant!